"remain filled with orchards"

We’ve reached that place.

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 21:00:11 +1000

We’ve reached that place.

you gotta learn to be lovely again.

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 14:17:00 +1000

you gotta learn to be lovely again.

small poem.

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 10:38:53 +1000

small poem.

designedmemory: C.S is a song that happened a week ago but It...

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 01:04:08 +1000

designedmemory:

C.S is a song that happened a week ago but It costs me too

much to keep, so I’d like to give it to you.

It won’t be on any upcoming releases - it’s just something I needed to say.

maybe you can find something in it for you - mds

——-

a favourite x.

http://c-arus.tumblr.com/gpoy

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 22:22:00 +1000

http://c-arus.tumblr.com/gpoy:

http://c-arus.tumblr.com/gpoy

hehe, a cape! i approve. how would you normally go about studying for a final exam?

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 20:24:00 +1000

It’s so beautiful haha. This answer got really extended. I study by reading mostly, if I’m desperate I put stuff in tables. I make case studies for evidence. More under the cut if you’d like it.

Well truthfully, I probably have the worst kind of study technique there is. I’m blessed with a really good short term memory so usually I just power through the course content in the couple days before hand haha. It especially worked for pol econ because it’s such a ‘grouped’ subject. I mean you have your different schools - neoclassical, marx, keynes etc. - and they all stand alone pretty well and where they do overlap it’s quite specific. So it’s a good ‘read through’ subject if that makes sense.

My next exam I’m probably not going to be able to do that. It’s for International and Global Studies and a lot of the issues overlap and the paradigms are applicable to everything. For example, if I were to talk about sustainable development, MNCs and equality would have to come into it for it to be a good answer. That would bring in all the stuff about measuring equality or inequality which is another subject in itself and I would talk about it. On top of that I would frame it through a realist or constructivist perspective, maybe even compare them. So my study for that exam is going to be a lot more complex. I’ll probably make some case studies and draw up some ‘issue tables’ to map where they overlap.

hope the exam and everything went okay! how was it? :/

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 16:49:21 +1000

Lovelies! I think I passed. There wasn’t a question I couldn’t answer at least - its just a question of how WELL I answered them y’know?
I’m happy because my next (and last) one’s not for 10 days, so I’ll actually have time to study. Also I bought myself a cape as a reward. Hahahaha.

More woodland flower queen feelings.

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 08:56:50 +1000

More woodland flower queen feelings.

I’m listening to Bombay Bicycle Club for the first time since an ill fated, ill advised hookup...

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 22:31:00 +1000

I’m listening to Bombay Bicycle Club for the first time since an ill fated, ill advised hookup at one of their concerts last year and Dust On the Ground is making me feel fragile inside.

“It’s that ancient love

That you won’t outgrow”

It’s so strange to be listening to their music again without sense memory crawling down my spine and making me feel sick. Yet now all I’m seeing is the face of the boy this song always belonged to. My heart a confusing place.

Curled up on the couch studying (see: opening the text book for...

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 16:11:39 +1000

Curled up on the couch studying (see: opening the text book for the first time because the exam’s tomorrow) with my own convenient little book stand.

Three 3 am nights for thirty three thousand anxieties.

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 02:24:14 +1000

Three 3 am nights for thirty three thousand anxieties.

Oh god, some nights I get so sad and I miss being in love, with a person and with the world and I...

Thu, 13 Jun 2013 23:00:00 +1000

Oh god, some nights I get so sad and I miss being in love, with a person and with the world and I miss being loved and feeling necessary to one person and beautiful. My eyes look empty in the mirror. I am a grey girl and no one will write poetry about me again. One boy I was in love with for so many years and it was a quiet thing inside me and I thought that would last forever but it’s withered too and the empty shelf in my chest where his love sat aches and I can cover it up with work and with life but when everything is quiet and I try to sleep I could drown in its space.

I am just so unremarkable.

It’s so stupid. I’m listening to a song I haven’t heard in years and it’s just so goddamn beautiful and I remember the first time I heard it, I was painting in the art room at school and it came up on shuffle through the speakers and right there, with kids screaming outside and just me sitting in this big, dim room drawing some stranger I started crying with happiness because the world was beautiful and wonderful and people loved each other and now I’m crying because I miss that passion, I miss my innocence. I miss the days where I felt remarkable.

And now there’s no one so I’m writing this on my shitty blog which I know people I know check because it’s mildly fascinating to watch someone fall the fuck apart and because we’ve all got our own shit we’re dealing with and so many boys have written me songs and poetry and bought me books and they probably didn’t even know how ugly I am inside and they probably just wanted some girl to help them through their shit too.

There just used to seem to be a point to this, you know?

what exams have you got coming up? =(

Thu, 13 Jun 2013 21:26:20 +1000

Just end of semester for uni. But I’m absolutely unprepared as usual hahahaahacryinginside.

If you couldn't draw/paint people, what would you draw/paint instead?

Thu, 13 Jun 2013 17:42:57 +1000

Hum! I do not know! I mean, I find drawing people to be the most interesting… I can do still life but I find it so dull. I would love to be able to make some really lovely abstract stuff! I’m terrible at it, my minds so literal but gosh, the amount of times Rothko has bought me to tears. Or maybe spend the rest of my time painting vases of flowers, in every artist’s style. :-)

amen gurl. amen. Thanks for your answers y’all. Will get...

Wed, 12 Jun 2013 21:25:45 +1000

amen gurl. amen.

Thanks for your answers y’all. Will get back to you ASAP… I’ve just got a second wind for my final essay so I’m going to plough through that for a while. XX

I’ve been feeling very static lately, missing both inspiration and the passion to purse it. A...

Wed, 12 Jun 2013 19:03:00 +1000

I’ve been feeling very static lately, missing both inspiration and the passion to purse it. A lot of stuff has changed in my life lately, but now that all is said and done, I’m feeling a bit like a piece of driftwood - just floating.

So, that said, I want to ask you guys - what inspires you? Drop a reply below! Books, music, poetry, places, films, art, anything at all! I’d love to know so I can take a look, maybe even have a bit of chat about it. Passion breeds passion after all.

WHAT INSPIRES YOU?

"A woman is not written in braille, you don’t have to touch her to know her."

Tue, 11 Jun 2013 20:24:18 +1000

“A woman is not written in braille, you don’t have to touch her to know her.”

- passionnanteee. (via tobia)

I’ve been bouncing around the idea of undertaking another longer writing project, the first...

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 23:07:01 +1000

I’ve been bouncing around the idea of undertaking another longer writing project, the first since HOW WE ARE GIVEN OVER and more based off personal happenings, specifically the experience of Oikophobia - fear of home - and the silence and the madness that came with that.

I’m scared though, because of what it took to overcome that thing inside me and because I’ve always had trouble separating my own fictions from reality. Yet there’s something whispering write it write it write it. I don’t know if I’m willing/ready to break so hard.

MUMFORD AND SONS | AFTER THE STORM “And there will come a...

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 21:55:00 +1000

MUMFORD AND SONS | AFTER THE STORM

“And there will come a time, you’ll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.”

(i am still waiting.)

little miss anxiety ‘13

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 19:06:17 +1000

little miss anxiety ‘13